Yet, just when I was starting to believe that she may be a fantasy, I found something in my preschool report card on accident. it is true that for most of my life, I only had one memory of her. The best moment of my life followed immediately by the worst. The moment that I was reminded of every time i felt the urge to kiss a girl. The moment I had almost stopped believing in until in 2021 when I found this piece of paper. It took me less than a year after finding it to find Lily and apologized.

I looked for Lily everywhere for 24 years. Eventually, I did find her and shortly after when the wound was starting to heal I heard this song and almost shit myself. The song is by an artist who goes by Lilyisthatyou. The question I had been asking for decades. She is now one of the two people who I now follow now on Instagram:

I made an Instagram account and followed Lilyisthatyou and the artist Banshee.

My account has some of these photos on it.

Profile Picture

I made this photo my profile picture and shortly after Lilyisthatyou

drops this song

I don’t know how to explain that other than something independent of my will inspired Lily Davies to make the perfect song to tell me what I knew since I heard Hard to Love. Namely, Lily Davies is not my dream girl. But she is to me something like my it is okay girl, so to speak.

I know Lilyisthatyou is not the Lily I remember. I know she is not the one I found. I know she does not have a clue who I am. I know this because she was born a day before my birthday in Ontario when I was six. So, how could she possibly be aware of me? Therefore, just by her being herself, Lilyisthatyou is the perfect person for me to understand that having a sexuality is okay.

It made giving up cigarettes for Lent and doing doing Ramadan alone super easy and really rewarding to say the chorus of her song Moderation while I was cooking for rich Heli skiers because every time I would have to spit out something I had to taste, I could say this:

We call this song the Ramadan song at work now.

But returning to my childhood trauma, this is the memory about Lily I could not forget for so long, I wrote it down 2020 before I even had any proof she even existed when I realized the memory would fade, and I wanted to capture the moment as it happened. I took the photos years after writing it.

I eventually found her and said sorry in 2021, but she was too shy and anxious to speak to me. But it was enough for me to know she is okay with what happened and to get to say sorry to her. It made me begin to get over it.

Lilyisthatyou was what made me stop dwelling on the past and start looking for someone else.

Lilyisthatyou’s first hit, released after COVID and for me to close out the year I found Lily really says it better than I could, and it released without my even knowing it until much later.

Unfortunately, Lilyisthatyou is not the same Lily as I knew, but nevertheless, she is attractive to say the least, yet how would you feel if you had the contents of the letter and the scars that followed happen to you and then an artist like Lilyisthatyou appeared?

Lilyisthatyou, you should be proud to know that you have at least one muse, tree spirit thing backing you. 🙂

Her new album dropped

21 August 2026