Conclusion
To conclude, The Document on My Muscles ultimatly will always be incomplete, but it is my attempt at getting at a beginning in the past that is in some ways forever lost even though it was so throughly recorded. But it should be enough to say that the fourth video was not random movements but the result of a large amount of work that will almost certainly go unseen by the multitude.
On its own, I should say it will always be incomplete. But after realizing the similarities between the a priori description of the formation of God in F. W. J. Schelling’s book The Ages of the World, I realized that the only way I could complete my project is by using it to complete his project.
If you read all of this then i would like to leave you with a line from The Ages of the World (1815) translated by Jason Wirth 2000, I have added the emphasis.
As with the coming time, God self-referentially shrouds the point of departure for the past beginning in dark night. It is not given to everyone to know the end and it is given to few to see the primordial beginnings of life and it is given to even fewer to think through the whole of things from beginning to end. Imitation, rather than the inner drive, leads to a research that confuses the senses as if by an inevitable fate. Hence, inner fortitude is necessary in order to keep a firm hold of the interrelation of movement from beginning to end. But they would then like, where only the deed decides, to arbitrate everything with peaceful and general concepts and to represent a history in which, as in reality, scenes of war and peace, pain and joy, deliverance and danger alternate as a mere series of thoughts. There is a light in this darkness. Just as according to the old and almost hackneyed phrase that the person is the world writ small, so the events of human life, from the deepest to their highest consummation, must accord with the events of life in general. Certainly one who could write completely the history of their own life would also have, in a small epitome, concurrently grasped the history of the cosmos. Most people turn away from what is concealed within themselves just as they turn away from the depths of the great life and shy away from the glance into the [208] abysses of that past which are still in one just as much as the present.
That primordial deed which makes a man genuinely himself precedes all individual actions; but immedia1ely after ii is put into exuberant freedom. this deed sinks into the night of unconsciousness. This is not a deed that could happen once and then
stop; it is a permanent deed. a never-ending deed, and consequently it can never again be brought before consciousness. For man to know of this deed, consciousness itself would have to return into nothing, into boundless freedom, and would cease to be consciousness. This deed occurs once and then immediately sinks back into the unfathomable depths; and nature
acquires permanence precisely thereby. Likewise that will, posited once at the beginning and then led to the outside. must immediately sink into unconsciousness. Only in this way is a beginning possible, a beginning that does not stop being a beginning, a truly eternal beginning. For here as well, ii is true
chat the beginning cannot know itself. That deed once done. it is done for all eternity. The decision that in some manner is truly to begin must not be brough1 back to consciousness: ft must not be called back, because this would a.moun1 to being 1aken back. If, in making a decision. somebody retains the right 10 reexamine his choice, he will never make a beginning at all.